Hello there Lovely Internet People! I hope everyone has made it safely through the madness that has become the true National Holiday of the United States, Black Friday. I have been following the multitude of stories and Facebook and Twitter updates concerning this saga (cause I sure ain't going out in it!), and there are some issues that I have seen that I want to address.
Issue Number One: I have seen several posts and stories suggesting that Black Friday "is the one time of year poor people can afford to buy nice things". That is complete and total fucking bullshit. I have been "poor" for most of my adult life, and I have lots of nice things, none of which were ever purchased on Black Friday. In fact the only people that I, personally, have ever met who actually do go shopping on Black Friday are as far removed from being poor as I am from being wealthy.
If you actually pay attention, Black Friday deals are not that fucking great in the first place. Most of the stores jack up their prices right before they put shit on sale, so you are pretty much paying the same price anyway. If you really want great deals, those are the week after Christmas, and the first week of January, not fucking Black Friday! Sure, they may throw a couple of "loss leaders" out there to try to scam you into coming to their store, but odds are those will not be available by the time you get there because they "sold out". Of course they sold out, they only had 5 to start with, and 50,000 people showed up to buy those 5. They know that since you put in all that time and effort to go there, you are probably going to buy something else, so they don't need to actually stock those "loss leaders", they just have to advertise them.
Issue Number Two: I don't have the same problem with the whole idea of the stores opening on Thanksgiving to start their scam sales that other people have expressed, if people want to shop, the stores should be open. When I was working in the retail and service industries I always volunteered to work the holidays, and I am sure I am not alone. Lots of people need the money, or don't have a family to spend the day with, or, like me, just don't really give a crap about holidays, they shouldn't be denied the chance to work if they want to. And if people want to spend the one day off they have shopping, instead of being with their families at home, well I sure can't fault them their choice, I would rather be pretty much anywhere than stuck hanging around with the rest of my family. Whatever floats your boat. I do wish the retailers paid their employees a living wage, and gave them the choice about working holidays, but that is going to require Government intervention. No greedy bastard is ever going to do the right thing by choice. I think they have already proven that.
My kids will get exactly what they want for Christmas, and I will not spend very much money, nor will I fight crowds or spend days running from place to place trying to find the "best deal". It probably helps that my kids don't have expensive tastes, nor to they have any peer pressure about what is "cool". They have pretty simple requests that are generally fairly easy to fulfill. The youngest wants Legos, the next one up wants video games, and the oldest just wants whatever cash I can spare, and maybe some cookies. I guess this is one of the few times where our complete lack of interest in impressing other people does actually pay off in our favor.
Issue Number Three: I understand that our capitalistic system requires rabid consumerism in order to sustain itself, and I also understand that the collapse of that system would have some pretty severe effects on all of us. So I certainly can't advocate that everyone not participate in the relentless pursuit of "more". But, I would ask that you take just a moment each time you do decide to spend your hard earned money, and think about who you are giving that money to, and why. If you are okay with the answers to those questions, then spend away. If not, well, then you have to make the choice, what are your priorities?
Until Next Time ...
About: A little bit silly, a little bit strange, usually worth a giggle, or at the very least a smile. Everyone is welcome at Mother's, except stupid people, if you are stupid please go away now. Mother Loves everyone, unconditionally. Mother HAS to love everyone unconditionally, because she really doesn’t like people. So if She didn’t Love you unconditionally She wouldn’t like any of you at all.
Friday, November 29, 2013
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Happy Turkey Day! Or Not
Hello again Lovely Internet People! Happy Turkey Day! My wonderful husband is in the kitchen slaving away over our Thanksgiving meal, so I thought I would pop in here and chat at all of you for a few minutes while my assistance is not being required for the preparations. Its just us and the two youngest boys this year, as usual. We watched the parade this morning, and my favorite football team is playing in the big turkey day game this evening, so we are enjoying a nice, quiet, Happy Thanksgiving, with no stress, and lots of fun.
I am not really much of a holiday person any more. I try to go through at least some of the motions for the sake of the kids, but I really just can't get into the whole "celebration" thing. Its just another fucking day to me. One that generally involves doing a lot of extra work that I do not enjoy. I am thankful and grateful for my life every day, I don't need to dedicate one day a year to it. And I hate being told when I am supposed to give things to the people I love, I don't care what stupid day it is, if I find something that I think some one will enjoy, I want to give it to them, right now! I don't want to wait until the appropriate holiday arrives, I don't have time for that shit! And with the way shit happens in my life, I may not even be able to give it to them by the time the approved holiday rolls around, so I am stuck with a reminder of how fucked up my life is. Awesome. Yeah, I don't much care for holidays.
And this whole fixation with holiday food? Hahaha. Um, not something that interests me, at all. Yes, I will very much enjoy the meal that my husband is busy preparing, but it won't be any thing like the culinary orgies going on in many other homes across this country today. And the entirety of the caloric intake I will consume today, is probably equal to what most people have for breakfast. So, yeah, not a food person.
As for the whole gathering together of friends and family thing? Yeah, well, that doesn't really work for me either. I have never had a lot of friends, and my family makes me uncomfortable (to put it mildly), so the whole concept of holiday "togetherness", is something I have pretty much always felt left out of anyway.
I used to really enjoy decorating the house for the holidays, but even that tiny bit of enthusiasm has dulled with the years. It just dawned on me that I am supposed to start the Christmas decorating tomorrow, that's my holiday tradition. While millions of Americans are trampling over one another at the malls, I have always spent Black Friday at home, putting up fake trees and sparkly lights. And I will do it again this year, perhaps with a little less enthusiasm than in my younger years, but that is pretty much how I do every thing these days.
Damn, I hope this post didn't sound as depressing to all of you as it does to me. That wasn't my intention. Holidays aren't depressing, they just aren't very exciting to me. I could, if I let myself, fall into a that deep dark hole of depression on any given holiday, but I choose not to allow that to happen. I don't think about the things that are missing, I remind myself, as I do every day, of all of the things that are not missing, and I focus on how extraordinarily grateful I am for those. And you guys. I am really grateful to every person that is visited this Blog and taken a few precious moments out of their lives to read the slightly incoherent words of this crazy middle aged lady who never expected anyone to actually read any of this shit. You are fucking Awesome! Thank YOU!
Until Next Time ...
I am not really much of a holiday person any more. I try to go through at least some of the motions for the sake of the kids, but I really just can't get into the whole "celebration" thing. Its just another fucking day to me. One that generally involves doing a lot of extra work that I do not enjoy. I am thankful and grateful for my life every day, I don't need to dedicate one day a year to it. And I hate being told when I am supposed to give things to the people I love, I don't care what stupid day it is, if I find something that I think some one will enjoy, I want to give it to them, right now! I don't want to wait until the appropriate holiday arrives, I don't have time for that shit! And with the way shit happens in my life, I may not even be able to give it to them by the time the approved holiday rolls around, so I am stuck with a reminder of how fucked up my life is. Awesome. Yeah, I don't much care for holidays.
And this whole fixation with holiday food? Hahaha. Um, not something that interests me, at all. Yes, I will very much enjoy the meal that my husband is busy preparing, but it won't be any thing like the culinary orgies going on in many other homes across this country today. And the entirety of the caloric intake I will consume today, is probably equal to what most people have for breakfast. So, yeah, not a food person.
As for the whole gathering together of friends and family thing? Yeah, well, that doesn't really work for me either. I have never had a lot of friends, and my family makes me uncomfortable (to put it mildly), so the whole concept of holiday "togetherness", is something I have pretty much always felt left out of anyway.
I used to really enjoy decorating the house for the holidays, but even that tiny bit of enthusiasm has dulled with the years. It just dawned on me that I am supposed to start the Christmas decorating tomorrow, that's my holiday tradition. While millions of Americans are trampling over one another at the malls, I have always spent Black Friday at home, putting up fake trees and sparkly lights. And I will do it again this year, perhaps with a little less enthusiasm than in my younger years, but that is pretty much how I do every thing these days.
Damn, I hope this post didn't sound as depressing to all of you as it does to me. That wasn't my intention. Holidays aren't depressing, they just aren't very exciting to me. I could, if I let myself, fall into a that deep dark hole of depression on any given holiday, but I choose not to allow that to happen. I don't think about the things that are missing, I remind myself, as I do every day, of all of the things that are not missing, and I focus on how extraordinarily grateful I am for those. And you guys. I am really grateful to every person that is visited this Blog and taken a few precious moments out of their lives to read the slightly incoherent words of this crazy middle aged lady who never expected anyone to actually read any of this shit. You are fucking Awesome! Thank YOU!
Until Next Time ...
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
A Song for Thanksgiving
Hello again Lovely Internet People! Mother has had a very frustrating few days and she is really hoping today is at least a little bit less so. I wrote a great, several paragraph long, Blog post yesterday telling you all about my (mis)adventures into the world of music creation. Unfortunately, when it was all finished and ready to be published, I went to add the obligatory picture that I always put at the end of these things, and ... Blogger crashed. Everything I had spent 3 hours carefully wording was gone! Awesome. Its not the first time this has happened, and I can pretty much guarantee it will not be the last. The wonders of technology can really suck ass when they aren't being wonderful.
Anyway, I wrote this awesome Thanksgiving protest song last week and I have spent the last several days desperately trying to figure out all these new music programs so that I could put it to music for you before Thanksgiving. It turns out that I am not the computer genius that I have (never) claimed to be. So, I am afraid this year you are just getting the written lyrics, maybe I can put it all together for next Thanksgiving, but it is not happening for this one. And with the way I sing, perhaps this is something you all can be grateful for in your list tomorrow.
Until Next Time, Happy Thanksgiving (to my American peoples), sure hope that you enjoy ...
Anyway, I wrote this awesome Thanksgiving protest song last week and I have spent the last several days desperately trying to figure out all these new music programs so that I could put it to music for you before Thanksgiving. It turns out that I am not the computer genius that I have (never) claimed to be. So, I am afraid this year you are just getting the written lyrics, maybe I can put it all together for next Thanksgiving, but it is not happening for this one. And with the way I sing, perhaps this is something you all can be grateful for in your list tomorrow.
Until Next Time, Happy Thanksgiving (to my American peoples), sure hope that you enjoy ...
"Its Time To Kill The Turkey"
Lyrics by S. Walthour
Its time to
kill the turkey
and serve it
on a plate
Forget the
grief around the world
its time to
celebrate
Give thanks
for all the suffering
just grateful
its not you
Pretend the
problems aren't your fault
but you
haven't got a clue.
Tell the poor
they're lazy
and they
should get a job
while you get
rich on dividends
you pathetic
wretched snob.
You're Always
laughing
at the lowly
poor
while you
keep busy
making sure
there's more
You don't pay
fair
to the man on
the floor
just keepin
all the money
for the names
on the door.
People can't
live
on what they
can make
But you put
them down
if help they
must take
Out here the
average guy
can't ever
catch a break
and all you
can say is
let them eat
cake?
Happy
Thanksgiving,
sure hope
that you enjoy
Pay no
attention
to that
starvin little boy
He must
deserve to suffer
for the
things he cannot change
So make his
life be rougher
that is easy
to arrange.
Tonight
people will go hungry
They will
suffer for your greed
while you
will stuff your face with plenty
others won't
get what they need.
You're Always
laughing
at the lowly
poor
while you
keep busy
making sure
there's more
You don't pay
fair
to the man on
the floor
just keepin
all the money
for the names
on the door.
People can't
live
on what they
can make
But you put
them down
if help they
must take
Out here the
average guy
can't ever
catch a break
and all you
can say is
let them eat
cake?
Hope you
enjoy Thanksgiving,
and your
Christmas too
keep on
cuttin their safety net
soon they'll
be eating you.
This year
lets make changes
So that
everyone can eat
Heal the sick
and house the homeless
No more dying
in the street.
Clean water
is a human right
food and
health care should be too
No one else
should go without
to feed the
greed of a few.
No more
laughing
at the lowly
poor
we're not
gonna let you
keep on
making more
We demand
fair pay
for the man
on the floor
Taking back
our lives
from the
names on the door.
People need
to live on
what they can
make
we have had
enough,
no more can
we take
Time to give
every guy
and girl a
fair break
The Time has
come for everyone
to share in
that cake!
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Frying My Brain On Acid
Hello there Lovely Internet People! Mother has spent the last several days frying her brain on Acid. No, not the drug kind, the software kind. My wonderful husband installed Sony's Acid Music Studio program on my new computer and I have been hard at work trying to figure it all out.
After three days of tinkering and farting around I have come to the conclusion that the 10,000 little pieces of music that I have to play with are not going to be nearly enough. I think the obsessive compulsive part of my brain is going to have a hay day with this new little project of mine.
I have managed to make a few pretty decent songs. I still have to create and record lyrics for them before you all are gonna get to hear them, but the few people I have played them for have been remarkably impressed. Even my husband, who I know had absolutely no confidence in my ability to do this (and rightly so since I have no musical background whatsoever to speak of), was actually left speechless at the awesomeness of my first musical creation. That was so fucking cool! The look on his face as he went from telling me that I don't know what I am doing, to realizing that maybe I did, I will treasure that look for the rest of my days. It isn't often that I shock the shit out of him with my endeavors, at least not in a good way, so I have to make the most of it when ever I manage to do so.
Now that I have a fairly solid basic understanding of how to operate the Acid program I need to get on to figuring out the rest of the software programs that I am going to require going forward. I still have to learn all about the world of making and editing video, which I also have zero background in understanding. That should be lots of fun. And then there are still the graphics programs, and the web design software, but at least I do have some experience with those kinds of things, so the learning curve shouldn't be quite as steep for those programs. That's what I am hoping anyway.
One thing is for certain, I cannot remember a time when I looked forward to going to work each morning as much as I do right now. And tearing myself away from the computer when bed time rolls around has been increasingly difficult, which for someone who enjoys sleeping as much as I do, that is pretty danged incredible! Just sitting here typing about it has gotten me all excited to get back to work, so I think that is what I am gonna do. For now I will leave you with the results of my first attempt at working with my new graphics program, it turns out that I can "draw: pretty good after all, not great yet mind you, but its a pretty good first attempt for someone who can't actually draw.
Until Next Time ...
After three days of tinkering and farting around I have come to the conclusion that the 10,000 little pieces of music that I have to play with are not going to be nearly enough. I think the obsessive compulsive part of my brain is going to have a hay day with this new little project of mine.
I have managed to make a few pretty decent songs. I still have to create and record lyrics for them before you all are gonna get to hear them, but the few people I have played them for have been remarkably impressed. Even my husband, who I know had absolutely no confidence in my ability to do this (and rightly so since I have no musical background whatsoever to speak of), was actually left speechless at the awesomeness of my first musical creation. That was so fucking cool! The look on his face as he went from telling me that I don't know what I am doing, to realizing that maybe I did, I will treasure that look for the rest of my days. It isn't often that I shock the shit out of him with my endeavors, at least not in a good way, so I have to make the most of it when ever I manage to do so.
Now that I have a fairly solid basic understanding of how to operate the Acid program I need to get on to figuring out the rest of the software programs that I am going to require going forward. I still have to learn all about the world of making and editing video, which I also have zero background in understanding. That should be lots of fun. And then there are still the graphics programs, and the web design software, but at least I do have some experience with those kinds of things, so the learning curve shouldn't be quite as steep for those programs. That's what I am hoping anyway.
One thing is for certain, I cannot remember a time when I looked forward to going to work each morning as much as I do right now. And tearing myself away from the computer when bed time rolls around has been increasingly difficult, which for someone who enjoys sleeping as much as I do, that is pretty danged incredible! Just sitting here typing about it has gotten me all excited to get back to work, so I think that is what I am gonna do. For now I will leave you with the results of my first attempt at working with my new graphics program, it turns out that I can "draw: pretty good after all, not great yet mind you, but its a pretty good first attempt for someone who can't actually draw.
Until Next Time ...
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Why I Won't Be Reasonable
Hello again Lovely Internet People! The other day I spent several hours in here, venting and raging and typing my little fingers off on a very bitchy type Blog Post about something that happened out in the "real" world that pissed me off. Then my wonderful husband came in here, read one sentence out of the hundred that were on the page, took it entirely out of context, and then spent the next hour raging at me. I deleted that post without posting it by the way, out of sheer frustration and exasperation, and because I never did find a way to finish it and I forgot the point of why I was writing it in the first place, not just because he was being ridiculous.
Now I have stated before that I am not allowed to discuss my husband when we are fighting, but, since "we" were never actually fighting, and since I am not actually mad at him at the moment, I am gonna talk about it anyway.
He's been under a great deal of stress lately, much of it self-induced, but most of it from external and uncontrollable sources, and it seems that for a moment there he kinda forgot who I was. So while he is standing there telling me how "unambitious" I am, and how I need to be more "reasonable and responsible", all I can do is look at him and wonder just who the heck he is talking to.
I mean really now, you would think after 12 years together he might have learned something about me. And, to be fair, he really has, but apparently he forgets all that shit when he decides to displace his displeasure with the rest of the world onto me. I am quite sure I do the same thing to him on a regular basis, so it all evens out in the end I guess.
Once he exhausted his need to vent all of his frustrations and other assorted non-classified emotions he was quick to acknowledge that he was being ridiculous. And I was quick to remind him that being ridiculous is MY job in this relationship, and while I don't mind sharing the load occasionally, I have no intention of relinquishing the position.
I am not ever going to be "reasonable" or "responsible". It is not something I am psychologically, or physiologically, capable of doing. Okay, that's not exactly true. I am very capable of being both reasonable and responsible, but doing so causes intense, chronic, debilitating, physical and psychological depression. That is not something I have any interest in going back to, ever again, thanks anyway.
I do my very best not to be Irresponsible or Unreasonable. I don't have credit cards, I don't go out and party, I don't drink, or use drugs, or gamble, and I sure don't sit around on my ass all day eating bonbons and watching soap operas. But I cannot be expected to worry about the things the rest of the world wants me to worry about, I just can't do it, and I am not even going to pretend to try any more. I was honest about all of this from the very beginning it really should not be a surprise to him now.
As for being "unambitious", nothing could be farther from the truth, and he knows that better than any one. I am probably one of the most ambitious people I know. I just don't have the kinds of ambitions that other people think I should, nor do I generally share any of my ambitions with any one else, because they are not usually what other people would consider reasonable, and they probably border on irresponsible most of the time.
Go ahead and tell me that making twin sized quilts for every one of my parents' 12 great-grandchildren, plus several more twin and queen sized ones for 4 of their grandchildren, in less than two years, was not an ambitious undertaking for someone with no money, no time, and very little quilt making experience. It was extremely fucking ambitious! It was also extremely unreasonable, and probably more than a little irresponsible.
The reason I never did anything more with my life than what I have done is because of all the people who required me to be reasonable and responsible when they should have been feeding the fires of my ambition instead. If there is one determining factor in why I adore my husband no matter how often he intrudes into my realm of ridiculousness, it is because he feeds those fires, even when he thinks he shouldn't. He might bitch, he might moan, he might even try to explain to me how foolish and unreasonable I am being, but he will pull out all the stops to help support and encourage what ever it is I want to do the moment I express an interest in doing something. I still don't expect him to, but some how he always does it any way.
For now we have returned to the happy equilibrium where he takes care of the responsible and reasonable stuff, and I take care of everything else. I have enough to do without worrying about all that reality nonsense.
Until next Time ...
Now I have stated before that I am not allowed to discuss my husband when we are fighting, but, since "we" were never actually fighting, and since I am not actually mad at him at the moment, I am gonna talk about it anyway.
He's been under a great deal of stress lately, much of it self-induced, but most of it from external and uncontrollable sources, and it seems that for a moment there he kinda forgot who I was. So while he is standing there telling me how "unambitious" I am, and how I need to be more "reasonable and responsible", all I can do is look at him and wonder just who the heck he is talking to.
I mean really now, you would think after 12 years together he might have learned something about me. And, to be fair, he really has, but apparently he forgets all that shit when he decides to displace his displeasure with the rest of the world onto me. I am quite sure I do the same thing to him on a regular basis, so it all evens out in the end I guess.
Once he exhausted his need to vent all of his frustrations and other assorted non-classified emotions he was quick to acknowledge that he was being ridiculous. And I was quick to remind him that being ridiculous is MY job in this relationship, and while I don't mind sharing the load occasionally, I have no intention of relinquishing the position.
I am not ever going to be "reasonable" or "responsible". It is not something I am psychologically, or physiologically, capable of doing. Okay, that's not exactly true. I am very capable of being both reasonable and responsible, but doing so causes intense, chronic, debilitating, physical and psychological depression. That is not something I have any interest in going back to, ever again, thanks anyway.
I do my very best not to be Irresponsible or Unreasonable. I don't have credit cards, I don't go out and party, I don't drink, or use drugs, or gamble, and I sure don't sit around on my ass all day eating bonbons and watching soap operas. But I cannot be expected to worry about the things the rest of the world wants me to worry about, I just can't do it, and I am not even going to pretend to try any more. I was honest about all of this from the very beginning it really should not be a surprise to him now.
As for being "unambitious", nothing could be farther from the truth, and he knows that better than any one. I am probably one of the most ambitious people I know. I just don't have the kinds of ambitions that other people think I should, nor do I generally share any of my ambitions with any one else, because they are not usually what other people would consider reasonable, and they probably border on irresponsible most of the time.
Go ahead and tell me that making twin sized quilts for every one of my parents' 12 great-grandchildren, plus several more twin and queen sized ones for 4 of their grandchildren, in less than two years, was not an ambitious undertaking for someone with no money, no time, and very little quilt making experience. It was extremely fucking ambitious! It was also extremely unreasonable, and probably more than a little irresponsible.
The reason I never did anything more with my life than what I have done is because of all the people who required me to be reasonable and responsible when they should have been feeding the fires of my ambition instead. If there is one determining factor in why I adore my husband no matter how often he intrudes into my realm of ridiculousness, it is because he feeds those fires, even when he thinks he shouldn't. He might bitch, he might moan, he might even try to explain to me how foolish and unreasonable I am being, but he will pull out all the stops to help support and encourage what ever it is I want to do the moment I express an interest in doing something. I still don't expect him to, but some how he always does it any way.
For now we have returned to the happy equilibrium where he takes care of the responsible and reasonable stuff, and I take care of everything else. I have enough to do without worrying about all that reality nonsense.
Until next Time ...
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Brand Spanking New, Ultra-Secret, Extremely Impractical Project
Hello again Lovely Internet People! Hope everyone out there in the interwebs is having an awesome day! I have been sitting here catching up on the news of the day and the workings of the world and just generally enjoying a quiet Sunday morning and I thought maybe I should pop in here and see if I could come up with something entertaining for you all to enjoy.
Then, I started typing, and there was nothing entertaining coming out on the page. No surprise there. So I started thinking again. And thinking, and thinking, and thinking. Nope, I got nothin.
For the last several days (maybe weeks, I am losing track of time again), I have been working on a brand spanking new, ultra-secret, extremely impractical project for all of you. Okay fine, it's really actually just for me, but I do hope you will enjoy it too. If you have been following along around here you may already know that I have been in a desperate search for a productive and challenging use of my time that might in some way lend itself to making the world suck just a little bit less for myself, and as many other people as possible. I think I have finally found it.
I am not sure how "productive" it will actually be, that is dependent on a lot of factors that are beyond my control, but I know it will be challenging, and I do have some small hopes that it will be at least minimally successful in reducing the world suck quotient at any given point in time.
So what in the world are you talking about this time Mother? Damn I wish this woman would learn to get to the freakin point without all this talking in circles crap! No, you don't, if you wanted to read something written by someone who was capable of getting to the damn point without all these silly innuendos and colloquial circle jerks, you wouldn't be here reading my shit in the first place. So quit pretending you don't enjoy my nonsense when you know you really do.
Then, I started typing, and there was nothing entertaining coming out on the page. No surprise there. So I started thinking again. And thinking, and thinking, and thinking. Nope, I got nothin.
For the last several days (maybe weeks, I am losing track of time again), I have been working on a brand spanking new, ultra-secret, extremely impractical project for all of you. Okay fine, it's really actually just for me, but I do hope you will enjoy it too. If you have been following along around here you may already know that I have been in a desperate search for a productive and challenging use of my time that might in some way lend itself to making the world suck just a little bit less for myself, and as many other people as possible. I think I have finally found it.
I am not sure how "productive" it will actually be, that is dependent on a lot of factors that are beyond my control, but I know it will be challenging, and I do have some small hopes that it will be at least minimally successful in reducing the world suck quotient at any given point in time.
So what in the world are you talking about this time Mother? Damn I wish this woman would learn to get to the freakin point without all this talking in circles crap! No, you don't, if you wanted to read something written by someone who was capable of getting to the damn point without all these silly innuendos and colloquial circle jerks, you wouldn't be here reading my shit in the first place. So quit pretending you don't enjoy my nonsense when you know you really do.
Anyway, for as long as I can remember (which may or may not be that long, since memory isn't my strong suit anymore) I have had this secret dream of being a comedian. Up until a few weeks ago I had never expressed this desire out loud to anyone because there had never been anyone in my life who would have approved of such a career choice for me. And to be fair, as a self-confessed,
emotionally high-strung, obscenely sensitive, anti-social, anorexic,
agoraphobic, with an anxiety disorder and an overwhelming terror of
public speaking, who also happens to be extremely uncomfortable with
being the center of attention, perhaps comedy is not the most optimal career path, but I did mention I was looking for a challenge.
All my life, the one thing that has always been the most gratifying to me is to make other people happy. I find no greater joy than in being able bring laughter to people who desperately need it. When I was an adolescent I used to sign off on all of my letters and notes with the phrase, "With Love and Laughter". That simple little phrase defines me, it defines my life goals, my mission, my purpose, and it is time I learn to create a world around it. And that is exactly what I am trying to do now.
So how does a self-confessed
emotionally high-strung, obscenely sensitive, anti-social, anorexic,
agoraphobic, with an anxiety disorder and an overwhelming terror of
public speaking, who also happens to be extremely uncomfortable with
being the center of attention go about becoming a comedian without leaving the house or actually interacting in the real world with actual people? The Internet of course!
I am in the process of developing my own web site which will hopefully be an amalgamation of happy, silly, fun stuff that will bring happiness and joy to at least one or two people over the course of its theoretical existence. Now, a great percentage of what you will eventually find there has not been created yet, so this is going to take more than a little bit of time before it is ready to make anyone happy, besides me, who gets to be happy by learning all kinds of new things that I have no freakin clue how to do yet.
The envisioned web site will (hopefully) contain a multitude of resources for inducing fits of giggles and maybe even some all out belly bursting laughter, all available with just the click of a mouse. Along with Pages for the pretty much mandatory silly picture galleries, and of course Blog posts filled with these awe inspiring colloquial conundrums that I have become so famous for over the last couple of years, there will also be a vast array of brand new genres of silliness! I am working at writing a whole bunch of new "songs" with original music which will all be really bad because I can't sing and I don't know shit about music, but I think they will be funny anyway, and that is the only point.
And, I am in the process of working up the courage to start making something they call a "Vlog", which is basically just making a video of me actually talking to you instead of you just having to read the words yourself like you do here. I truly believe these would be an outrageous hit if for no other reason than the fact that most people will find me extremely funny looking and may watch just for that reason. I am trying to get used to that idea, and be okay with it, but I must admit it is something I still have some work to do on.
I have been spending an inordinate amount of time on YouTube lately, doing research on this whole vlogging concept, and no matter how long I searched or how many variations of search terms I used, I could not find anyone out there who was even remotely like me. After much extensive searching I found a few Vloggers who are middle aged women (very few), but they were either doing DIY videos for crafting, or home repair projects, or make-up tutorials, or some other incredibly useful and informative crap like that, and they all look like they have their own professional make up artists and an entire production crew. The very, very few female vloggers who were just there to share ideas and induce laughter in their viewers were all under the age of 30, most of them less than 20! I could not find even one single independent middle aged female vlogger who wasn't pushing a product line or promoting some propagandist agenda. Wait, I take that back, I did find one, there is one very awesome woman who does outrageous covers of popular songs and some other silly stuff, but even she is the polar opposite of me in just about everything except the silliness factor.
Now it could very well be that I could not find any of these women because no one on the planet besides me has any interest in finding them. I know I am completely and totally unique, but what remains to be seen is whether or not people will find that entertaining, or just annoying. I know there are at least a few people out there who seem to enjoy my sense of humor, and I really hope we can find a few more in the coming months and years.
Of course all of this is totally dependent on me figuring out a whole bunch of new complicated and intricate computer programs and getting over my semi-paralyzing fear of being recorded in any way, but I do have high hopes for a potential launch date of early next year. I am shooting for the first of January, but I am not too sure how realistic that is since I don't even have any of the programs to even look at yet. Hopefully, by the end of next week I may have a better idea of exactly how much work is ahead of me. In the meantime I am super duper excited about all these fantastical ideas for supremely silly content that I hope to create. Stay tuned for updates and exciting announcements coming to a Blog, and a couple of Facebook Pages, near you soon.
Until Next Time ...
The envisioned web site will (hopefully) contain a multitude of resources for inducing fits of giggles and maybe even some all out belly bursting laughter, all available with just the click of a mouse. Along with Pages for the pretty much mandatory silly picture galleries, and of course Blog posts filled with these awe inspiring colloquial conundrums that I have become so famous for over the last couple of years, there will also be a vast array of brand new genres of silliness! I am working at writing a whole bunch of new "songs" with original music which will all be really bad because I can't sing and I don't know shit about music, but I think they will be funny anyway, and that is the only point.
And, I am in the process of working up the courage to start making something they call a "Vlog", which is basically just making a video of me actually talking to you instead of you just having to read the words yourself like you do here. I truly believe these would be an outrageous hit if for no other reason than the fact that most people will find me extremely funny looking and may watch just for that reason. I am trying to get used to that idea, and be okay with it, but I must admit it is something I still have some work to do on.
I have been spending an inordinate amount of time on YouTube lately, doing research on this whole vlogging concept, and no matter how long I searched or how many variations of search terms I used, I could not find anyone out there who was even remotely like me. After much extensive searching I found a few Vloggers who are middle aged women (very few), but they were either doing DIY videos for crafting, or home repair projects, or make-up tutorials, or some other incredibly useful and informative crap like that, and they all look like they have their own professional make up artists and an entire production crew. The very, very few female vloggers who were just there to share ideas and induce laughter in their viewers were all under the age of 30, most of them less than 20! I could not find even one single independent middle aged female vlogger who wasn't pushing a product line or promoting some propagandist agenda. Wait, I take that back, I did find one, there is one very awesome woman who does outrageous covers of popular songs and some other silly stuff, but even she is the polar opposite of me in just about everything except the silliness factor.
Now it could very well be that I could not find any of these women because no one on the planet besides me has any interest in finding them. I know I am completely and totally unique, but what remains to be seen is whether or not people will find that entertaining, or just annoying. I know there are at least a few people out there who seem to enjoy my sense of humor, and I really hope we can find a few more in the coming months and years.
Of course all of this is totally dependent on me figuring out a whole bunch of new complicated and intricate computer programs and getting over my semi-paralyzing fear of being recorded in any way, but I do have high hopes for a potential launch date of early next year. I am shooting for the first of January, but I am not too sure how realistic that is since I don't even have any of the programs to even look at yet. Hopefully, by the end of next week I may have a better idea of exactly how much work is ahead of me. In the meantime I am super duper excited about all these fantastical ideas for supremely silly content that I hope to create. Stay tuned for updates and exciting announcements coming to a Blog, and a couple of Facebook Pages, near you soon.
Until Next Time ...
Thursday, November 7, 2013
How Important Is Online Education? Mother's Response.
Hello again Lovely Internet People! I was doing some research yesterday and I came upon a YouTube Channel Called "Talk" . In the last month their channel has done a series of videos talking about the importance of online education, and whether or not it could, or even should, take over from our current classical education model. I think I have a slightly different perspective on this issue than the folks at "Talk", so I wanted to share some of my thoughts on this issue.
Those of you who have followed along here for any length of time already know that I am a HUGE fan of online education. I am a HUGE fan of pretty much all forms of learning, because I know for a fact that everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses when it comes to learning. We do not all learn all things in the same way. Even within a single individual there are major differences in each person's learning style for each subject they might attempt to learn. I don't learn new math concepts in the same way I learn new facts about history, the processes are very different.
My husband envisions a future where all learning is done via computers, with teachers only being available for answering questions or providing oversight. I don't know if this is the best answer for everyone, and I certainly do not believe that all subjects can be taught exclusively on the computer. But I do believe the option should be available for those who could benefit from it.
I don't think the answer is to replace our school system with all online learning, but I do think our current system needs some major overhauling. There are many valuable lessons beyond academics that can be taught in our schools, but at the moment we are teaching the wrong ones.
Until Next Time ...
Those of you who have followed along here for any length of time already know that I am a HUGE fan of online education. I am a HUGE fan of pretty much all forms of learning, because I know for a fact that everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses when it comes to learning. We do not all learn all things in the same way. Even within a single individual there are major differences in each person's learning style for each subject they might attempt to learn. I don't learn new math concepts in the same way I learn new facts about history, the processes are very different.
My husband envisions a future where all learning is done via computers, with teachers only being available for answering questions or providing oversight. I don't know if this is the best answer for everyone, and I certainly do not believe that all subjects can be taught exclusively on the computer. But I do believe the option should be available for those who could benefit from it.
I don't think the answer is to replace our school system with all online learning, but I do think our current system needs some major overhauling. There are many valuable lessons beyond academics that can be taught in our schools, but at the moment we are teaching the wrong ones.
In her interview with John Stewart on the Daily Show, Malala Yousafza talked about all the things that children should be learning in school, beyond the subjects they are being taught. Things like how to get along with one another, how to treat other people, how to cooperate and collaborate with others, all of these things are vital lessons in the development of a child, and a community. Unfortunately, these are not the things that I see being taught in our schools in this country. We seem to be teaching the exact opposite.
Okay, I hope we maybe can all agree that these aspects of education are very important to the functioning of our society. Maybe the reason our society is in the mess it is in is because we have neglected teaching these valuable lessons in our schools. My question is this, is there no other way to learn these lessons than in a school setting? And to me it seems that the answer is a resounding, NO.
I am a strong proponent of online education because I believe it does more to level the playing field of our world than any school system ever could. Of course it does require access to the internet, which may be as unattainable as a classroom education for many people around the world, but for those who can access it, a whole new world has opened to them that they never even knew existed before.
Education is not something that can be contained within the walls of a classroom. Life is education. Whether we like it or not, most of us learn something new every day, long after we have finished our formal education. Any person who believes that learning must take place in a classroom, and must be tested to be verified, is missing out on 90% of the learning they could be doing.
I have mentioned before that I home school my kids. I do so for a wide variety of reasons, not the least of which is that I believe it provides them with a better opportunity for their education. They work at their own pace, and they control the flow of information that they consume. My son, who technically should be in 6th grade this year, according to his age, is taking two High School Advanced Placement level classes (American History and Environmental Science) online and doing quite well in them. They would never let him do that in a regular school! About 80% of my children's "school work" is done online each day, but only about 20% of their learning is done there. Learning happens everywhere, if you allow it to happen.
Personally, I love online education because of all it has given me. I have finally found a way to learn about any subject I could possibly want to know, without having to haul 100 pounds of books home from the library every week! That is a tremendous weight off my shoulders, literally and figuratively. I have always been a self educator, I learned early on that the school system could never keep up with me, so I took on the responsibility. And for decades I did lug dozens of books home from the library every week. When I got my first library card at age 5 I asked the librarian how many books I was allowed to check out at a time. The silly lady told me that I could take whatever I could carry! She apparently had no idea just how much an extremely determined little girl was capable of carrying!
I would have to say that online education is one of the greatest gifts of the 21st century. Whether it is in a formal setting, such as taking actual online courses through a University, or an informal setting such as YouTube, the abundance of information now available at the click of a mouse is staggering. But it can also be very dangerous. There is no system of accountability online. Anyone can post anything they want to post, whether it has any basis in fact or not is not relevant. So online learning requires a lot more vetting of the information gathered to ensure its legitimacy. But this is also an extremely valuable skill that everyone would do well to develop since such a large percentage of the "information" we are flooded with on a daily basis is in fact false. Whether it comes from the TV news, advertisers, or even our own government, there is so much false information being shoved down our collective throats every day that it is often hard to have a rational discussion with people because they are too busy defending their false information to spend even one moment looking for the truth. And that is sad. Very, very sad.
Until Next Time ...
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Puss-Filled Plagiarising Political Putz Paul
Hello again Lovely Internet People! I was sitting here trying to figure out what to write about today, and as I was looking through my Twitter Feed I found a topic that was so strikingly obnoxious I just could not ignore it. So today we are going to have a little conversation about Plagiarism.
I don't know how many of you are aware of the latest scandal out of Washington DC where a certain elected representative who has a long history of promoting unethical and immoral behavior in the form of LYING, has now been shown to have wandered into the nearby territory of THEFT. That is what Plagiarism is you know, it is THEFT! And it is the worst kind of theft as far as I am concerned. Stealing people's money or possessions is a terrible awful bloody freakin slime ball thing to do, but stealing their ideas, their thoughts, their visions, that is just unforgivable. The only true freedom we have as human beings is our freedom of thought, the only thing in this we world we can ever truly own are our thoughts, and to have someone else steal them and claim them as their own is truly horrifying to me.
In the interest if full disclosure, yes, I have taken the words of other people and used them on the silly pictures that I make. And I have stated very clearly, and very repeatedly, that 99% of those pictures include the words of somebody else. And while I did not credit the original source on any of the pictures, I have encouraged others to share that information in the comments if they know where it came from. I have never claimed or inferred that they are my own original thoughts, that is where the difference lies.
I suppose I should also be clear about the fact that I have never had an ounce of respect for the man long before this latest blatant expression of his contempt for basic human decency. All of his other expressions of contempt for basic human decency prior to this one were more than enough to convince me of his complete lack of a functioning moral compass, but this time he stepped beyond the boundaries of simple condescending contempt and jumped head first into a quagmire of reprehensible repugnance.
And then he decided that the best way to defend himself against the allegations of Plagiarism was to challenge Rachel Maddow to a duel? Seriously, WTF is that? I would like to let him know that my husband has gallantly offered to take Ms. Maddow's place in said duel, any time, just let us know whenever you are available, he will be happy to oblige. Personally, I think a verbal duel between Mr. Paul (and no, I am not crediting him with the title of his office and yes, this was deliberate) and Ms. Maddow would make for some awesome television, but I am sure the little turd-let hasn't got the intestinal fortitude to even attempt to match wits with such a superior opponent, nor does he have any wits of his own with which to work, which is apparently why he feels the need to have other people steal other people's words which he will then claim as his own.
Mr. Paul needs to climb down off his high horse and join the rest of us in the real world for a little while. Someone who has spent his entire life sucking from the government teat should not be lecturing any one else on how to live their lives. If I had spent as much of my life lying, stealing, cheating, and discriminating against everyone who is not just like me, I would be in jail, for life. But somehow I am supposed to believe it is okay for him to do these things because some moronic fools on the other side of the country were suckered into voting for this abhorrent abominable degenerate. NO, I do not think so. Not gonna happen. It is NOT okay, and I am not going to sit idly by and pretend that it is when ever fiber of my being is screaming at me that it is not.
There is very little I can do about the vile wretched reprobates currently usurping the prime directive of the offices to which they were elected. I don't live in their districts and I sure don't have any money to contribute to those who would campaign against them. The only power I have is to speak out against their abuses and hope that somebody, somewhere, who might be able to do something more proactive, will actually pay some attention.
Until next Time ...
I don't know how many of you are aware of the latest scandal out of Washington DC where a certain elected representative who has a long history of promoting unethical and immoral behavior in the form of LYING, has now been shown to have wandered into the nearby territory of THEFT. That is what Plagiarism is you know, it is THEFT! And it is the worst kind of theft as far as I am concerned. Stealing people's money or possessions is a terrible awful bloody freakin slime ball thing to do, but stealing their ideas, their thoughts, their visions, that is just unforgivable. The only true freedom we have as human beings is our freedom of thought, the only thing in this we world we can ever truly own are our thoughts, and to have someone else steal them and claim them as their own is truly horrifying to me.
In the interest if full disclosure, yes, I have taken the words of other people and used them on the silly pictures that I make. And I have stated very clearly, and very repeatedly, that 99% of those pictures include the words of somebody else. And while I did not credit the original source on any of the pictures, I have encouraged others to share that information in the comments if they know where it came from. I have never claimed or inferred that they are my own original thoughts, that is where the difference lies.
I suppose I should also be clear about the fact that I have never had an ounce of respect for the man long before this latest blatant expression of his contempt for basic human decency. All of his other expressions of contempt for basic human decency prior to this one were more than enough to convince me of his complete lack of a functioning moral compass, but this time he stepped beyond the boundaries of simple condescending contempt and jumped head first into a quagmire of reprehensible repugnance.
And then he decided that the best way to defend himself against the allegations of Plagiarism was to challenge Rachel Maddow to a duel? Seriously, WTF is that? I would like to let him know that my husband has gallantly offered to take Ms. Maddow's place in said duel, any time, just let us know whenever you are available, he will be happy to oblige. Personally, I think a verbal duel between Mr. Paul (and no, I am not crediting him with the title of his office and yes, this was deliberate) and Ms. Maddow would make for some awesome television, but I am sure the little turd-let hasn't got the intestinal fortitude to even attempt to match wits with such a superior opponent, nor does he have any wits of his own with which to work, which is apparently why he feels the need to have other people steal other people's words which he will then claim as his own.
Mr. Paul needs to climb down off his high horse and join the rest of us in the real world for a little while. Someone who has spent his entire life sucking from the government teat should not be lecturing any one else on how to live their lives. If I had spent as much of my life lying, stealing, cheating, and discriminating against everyone who is not just like me, I would be in jail, for life. But somehow I am supposed to believe it is okay for him to do these things because some moronic fools on the other side of the country were suckered into voting for this abhorrent abominable degenerate. NO, I do not think so. Not gonna happen. It is NOT okay, and I am not going to sit idly by and pretend that it is when ever fiber of my being is screaming at me that it is not.
There is very little I can do about the vile wretched reprobates currently usurping the prime directive of the offices to which they were elected. I don't live in their districts and I sure don't have any money to contribute to those who would campaign against them. The only power I have is to speak out against their abuses and hope that somebody, somewhere, who might be able to do something more proactive, will actually pay some attention.
Until next Time ...
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Mother Has A Question
Hello again Lovely Internet People! Mother is feeling rather unwell today, actually, Mother just feels like shit. I try not to talk to all of you about all of the physical failings of my body because I really doubt that very many people care and there is nothing any one can do to fix it even if they did care, so it seems rather pointless to mention it all the time. Of course since I don't spend a great deal of time detailing all my ailments and issues most people assume that I am just a lazy person who doesn't want to work for a living when nothing could be further from the truth. I would LOVE to be able to work for a living at a real job like a real person, but I cannot. So I get to spend my days spinning the wheels in my head trying to figure out some way that I could possibly earn enough money to pay my freakin bills and maybe even have some money left over to eat.
I want to work. I actually enjoy working almost as much as I enjoy learning new things. I spend thousands of hours each year working my ass off, but none of the work that I do translates into monetary compensation, at least not much, certainly not enough to survive on. I am not a greedy person, I don't need lots of money, I just need enough to make sure the lights stay on and that I have a place to turn the lights on in. And maybe some food, I don't eat much, but them danged kids still think they need to eat every day for some strange reason. Silly children.
I have never really minded being poor. I don't lack for much of anything that is important to me, mostly because there aren't very many things that money can buy which are important to me. Beyond paying the bills the only reason to have money as far as I can see, is to make life better, for yourself and those around you. And there are a lot of things I could make a lot better if I had the money to do them, but very little in my life would change, other than not having to stress out every damn day about whether or not I will have a roof over my head next month.
The hardest thing to deal with at the moment is that I know pretty much exactly what I want to do now with the rest of my life, and I think I can make a living at it, someday, but someday is probably going to be a long ways away, and I don't know if I have the time to wait. And, of course, in order to do what I want to do I am going to need to spend some money on it, long before I stand any chance of making any money from it. And it is entirely possible that I will never make any substantial money from it and it will prove to be just another of the many ways I have gone about wasting money I do not have on a feeble attempt to improve my lot in life which will do little to nothing beyond costing me money.
My gawd is it any wonder I am fucking crazy?!? How could anyone who is me, not be crazy? But the question remains, am I crazy because of my life, or is my life crazy because I am? I don't know anymore. At this particular moment in time I am not sure that I know much of anything except that I have to do something, even if it is wrong. Which it probably will be because I can't seem to do much of anything right.
I could probably really use some help from people who know what the heck they are doing, but since I am incapable of asking for help I am trying to figure out everything on my own and I am not having a lot of success at the moment. I am overwhelmed and under funded and not sure what the best way to go about doing all of this is or even if this is worth bothering doing. Is my having fun and bringing a tiny bit of joy to any one who happens upon it really worth a few hundred dollars when I don't have any hundreds of dollars? I guess when you consider how many thousands of dollars I have spent on quilting stuff that will never make me a dime this doesn't seem like such a bad idea. Especially when you consider how much I really do not even like quilting, but was just using it as a way to not face the reality that is my life.
I have been thinking about selling off a lot of my quilting stuff that I am never going to use and using that money to fund this project. Unfortunately I will probably have to explain to my husband at some point what I am doing and why, and I really don't want to do that. I am pretty sure he could be helpful and supportive, but I can't let him because I can't really explain what I am doing or how it is going to make any money any time soon. Mr. Logical and Practical is not going to like any of this very much I am afraid. I think I can justify it enough to get him to go along with it, but I would really like to not involve him any more than absolutely necessary. I just don't need the additional stress that he tends to bring to anything I try to do.
Okay, I think I have probably outdone myself in the talking in circles and never really saying anything category today. No wonder I can't get anyone to come read this stupid Blog, when I constantly fill it up with such ridiculously boring and stupid posts like this one what the heck did I expect? And if I can't even come up with enough interesting and entertaining crap to get people to come to this Blog, why on earth would I think I could come up with anything that would make them go anywhere else that I might be able to receive some form of monetary compensation from? Yes, I have officially lost my mind. But since I have never let that stop me before I really don't see any reason to start now.
I hope somebody out there found something in here worth giggling at, and I would really like to hear from you if you are that somebody. I know, I know, I tell you all the time that I don't care if people don't like what I post, but I really do care very much if you do like what I post, and I would love to hear that from you once in a while. I know I am not very good at dealing with people, but I really do want to Love everyone, and to bring a little happiness into as many lives as possible, and it would probably be helpful if I had some kind of idea what I have to offer that would fulfill that intention. Pretty much everything I have written here, and most of what I have posted on my Facebook pages, are things that bring me some kind of enjoyment, but what is it that I post that you all find enjoyment in? What is it that you all want from me? Any positive input would be greatly appreciated.
Until next time ...
I want to work. I actually enjoy working almost as much as I enjoy learning new things. I spend thousands of hours each year working my ass off, but none of the work that I do translates into monetary compensation, at least not much, certainly not enough to survive on. I am not a greedy person, I don't need lots of money, I just need enough to make sure the lights stay on and that I have a place to turn the lights on in. And maybe some food, I don't eat much, but them danged kids still think they need to eat every day for some strange reason. Silly children.
I have never really minded being poor. I don't lack for much of anything that is important to me, mostly because there aren't very many things that money can buy which are important to me. Beyond paying the bills the only reason to have money as far as I can see, is to make life better, for yourself and those around you. And there are a lot of things I could make a lot better if I had the money to do them, but very little in my life would change, other than not having to stress out every damn day about whether or not I will have a roof over my head next month.
The hardest thing to deal with at the moment is that I know pretty much exactly what I want to do now with the rest of my life, and I think I can make a living at it, someday, but someday is probably going to be a long ways away, and I don't know if I have the time to wait. And, of course, in order to do what I want to do I am going to need to spend some money on it, long before I stand any chance of making any money from it. And it is entirely possible that I will never make any substantial money from it and it will prove to be just another of the many ways I have gone about wasting money I do not have on a feeble attempt to improve my lot in life which will do little to nothing beyond costing me money.
My gawd is it any wonder I am fucking crazy?!? How could anyone who is me, not be crazy? But the question remains, am I crazy because of my life, or is my life crazy because I am? I don't know anymore. At this particular moment in time I am not sure that I know much of anything except that I have to do something, even if it is wrong. Which it probably will be because I can't seem to do much of anything right.
I could probably really use some help from people who know what the heck they are doing, but since I am incapable of asking for help I am trying to figure out everything on my own and I am not having a lot of success at the moment. I am overwhelmed and under funded and not sure what the best way to go about doing all of this is or even if this is worth bothering doing. Is my having fun and bringing a tiny bit of joy to any one who happens upon it really worth a few hundred dollars when I don't have any hundreds of dollars? I guess when you consider how many thousands of dollars I have spent on quilting stuff that will never make me a dime this doesn't seem like such a bad idea. Especially when you consider how much I really do not even like quilting, but was just using it as a way to not face the reality that is my life.
I have been thinking about selling off a lot of my quilting stuff that I am never going to use and using that money to fund this project. Unfortunately I will probably have to explain to my husband at some point what I am doing and why, and I really don't want to do that. I am pretty sure he could be helpful and supportive, but I can't let him because I can't really explain what I am doing or how it is going to make any money any time soon. Mr. Logical and Practical is not going to like any of this very much I am afraid. I think I can justify it enough to get him to go along with it, but I would really like to not involve him any more than absolutely necessary. I just don't need the additional stress that he tends to bring to anything I try to do.
Okay, I think I have probably outdone myself in the talking in circles and never really saying anything category today. No wonder I can't get anyone to come read this stupid Blog, when I constantly fill it up with such ridiculously boring and stupid posts like this one what the heck did I expect? And if I can't even come up with enough interesting and entertaining crap to get people to come to this Blog, why on earth would I think I could come up with anything that would make them go anywhere else that I might be able to receive some form of monetary compensation from? Yes, I have officially lost my mind. But since I have never let that stop me before I really don't see any reason to start now.
I hope somebody out there found something in here worth giggling at, and I would really like to hear from you if you are that somebody. I know, I know, I tell you all the time that I don't care if people don't like what I post, but I really do care very much if you do like what I post, and I would love to hear that from you once in a while. I know I am not very good at dealing with people, but I really do want to Love everyone, and to bring a little happiness into as many lives as possible, and it would probably be helpful if I had some kind of idea what I have to offer that would fulfill that intention. Pretty much everything I have written here, and most of what I have posted on my Facebook pages, are things that bring me some kind of enjoyment, but what is it that I post that you all find enjoyment in? What is it that you all want from me? Any positive input would be greatly appreciated.
Until next time ...
Friday, November 1, 2013
Giving Birth To A New Life
Hello again Lovely Internet People! You know what I just realized? We just skipped right on over the two year anniversary of the birth of this Blog! Totally and completely missed it. Oops. Oh well, I am in the middle of conceptualizing a whole new massively major project and I tend to be a little distracted by all of that, so forgetting my own anniversary is not all that surprising.
When I first started the Facebook Page, and then this Blog I really didn't have any plan for what I wanted to do with them. I certainly never expected them to grow to the proportions that they did, that is still just amazing to me. I have just been stumbling along, trying to find my footing, trying to define myself and my life and what the fuck I am doing here, and doing a pretty piss poor job of it most of the time because I really had no clue what I was doing or why I was doing it.
After two very short years I have come to learn a lot about what I really want to do with what is left of my life, and the results are far different than what I envisioned when I began this journey. By allowing myself this avenue of expression I have finally begun to see just how much I have been missing in my life, how much of myself I have sacrificed for the comfort of others. This simple experiment in self expression has led me to the discovery of so many things about myself that really shouldn't have surprised me nearly as much as they did. And I know there is so much more yet to discover, there is something inside me that is straining to break free of its confines and I can't help but feel this is going to be epic. Monumental, in a way that the Basket from last Spring never could even begin to match. I am becoming what I am meant to be, and she is so different from what I had been led to believe. What I have trying to be for the last quarter of a century is not who I am, I never felt as if who I really am was an acceptable person to be, until now.
I am beginning to understand my place in this world, why I am the person I am, and now I just need to figure out how to do what I need to do to be who I am supposed to be. I have a lot of work ahead of me, but I am starting to get some idea of how to go about doing that work. Now, if I could only figure out how I am going to get someone to pay me for it, I would be in good shape. I really need a new source of income, preferably before we end up being homeless because we can't make the rent. As much as I hate money, we do need some to survive on this stupid planet these days, and our businesses are just not doing good enough at the moment to do that, so I need to figure out a new way to increase my income at least enough to be qualified as having one.
I know, I am probably talking in circles at you all again, sorry about that. That is just how my brain works. I am still trying to sort out the details of all that I have learned about myself, and I am still trying to figure out just exactly what the next steps will be in my attempts to create this new life that I am envisioning. As soon as I know what the heck I am talking about I am sure I will let you all know, but everything is still in the conceptualization phase, and I don't have a concrete concept to share with you just yet. Hopefully soon, but not yet.
In the mean time I have a lot of work ahead of me so i suppose I better sign outta here and get to working on it. I will be back again soon, with lots more nothing to say. Until next time ...
When I first started the Facebook Page, and then this Blog I really didn't have any plan for what I wanted to do with them. I certainly never expected them to grow to the proportions that they did, that is still just amazing to me. I have just been stumbling along, trying to find my footing, trying to define myself and my life and what the fuck I am doing here, and doing a pretty piss poor job of it most of the time because I really had no clue what I was doing or why I was doing it.
After two very short years I have come to learn a lot about what I really want to do with what is left of my life, and the results are far different than what I envisioned when I began this journey. By allowing myself this avenue of expression I have finally begun to see just how much I have been missing in my life, how much of myself I have sacrificed for the comfort of others. This simple experiment in self expression has led me to the discovery of so many things about myself that really shouldn't have surprised me nearly as much as they did. And I know there is so much more yet to discover, there is something inside me that is straining to break free of its confines and I can't help but feel this is going to be epic. Monumental, in a way that the Basket from last Spring never could even begin to match. I am becoming what I am meant to be, and she is so different from what I had been led to believe. What I have trying to be for the last quarter of a century is not who I am, I never felt as if who I really am was an acceptable person to be, until now.
I am beginning to understand my place in this world, why I am the person I am, and now I just need to figure out how to do what I need to do to be who I am supposed to be. I have a lot of work ahead of me, but I am starting to get some idea of how to go about doing that work. Now, if I could only figure out how I am going to get someone to pay me for it, I would be in good shape. I really need a new source of income, preferably before we end up being homeless because we can't make the rent. As much as I hate money, we do need some to survive on this stupid planet these days, and our businesses are just not doing good enough at the moment to do that, so I need to figure out a new way to increase my income at least enough to be qualified as having one.
I know, I am probably talking in circles at you all again, sorry about that. That is just how my brain works. I am still trying to sort out the details of all that I have learned about myself, and I am still trying to figure out just exactly what the next steps will be in my attempts to create this new life that I am envisioning. As soon as I know what the heck I am talking about I am sure I will let you all know, but everything is still in the conceptualization phase, and I don't have a concrete concept to share with you just yet. Hopefully soon, but not yet.
In the mean time I have a lot of work ahead of me so i suppose I better sign outta here and get to working on it. I will be back again soon, with lots more nothing to say. Until next time ...
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