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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Showing My Face to the World

Well Damnit, Blogger changed the stupid interface on me and I am NOT Pleased.  Not that it matters that much, but my favorite feature from the old interface is gone now, and that is sad.

Okay, so now I have two Blogs, and Three Facebook Pages up and sorta running.  I was thinking about starting a third Blog, to separate out my political/social rants from my personal struggles, but I am not sure I could keep up with which one was which for very long.  For now I think I will work on building the artsy crafty Blog and leave this one for all my craziness.

I am battling with myself over how I want to go forward with the entrepreneurial aspect of my life.  I have always enjoyed my anonymity immensely, but I think, in order to build my business the way I want, it may just be time to come out into the light of day.  If I am going to build a real name for myself, I think I need to BE myself, and let people see me for who I am.

This entire concept is of course quite terrifying for me.  I have mentioned before that I am not a people person.  But in order to do what I want to do, I think I am going to have to start faking it at least a little bit.  I am pretty self-conscious about my appearance, which is funny since I really don't give a shit about my appearance most of the time.  And honestly, other than the lack of a pretty smile, I am not really that hard on the eyes anyway.  I have certainly seen a lot worse.  And if they aren't afraid to go out in public and face the world, I don't see any reason why I should be.

So as soon as put together a biography I will post an actual picture of myself.  Not here. Here I am sticking with being anonymous, sort of.  I will post it on the Linaria Designs Blog , you will have to go there to see me.  I will let you know ahead of time, the picture I am going to use is 10 years old, but it is the best picture I have of me, and I don't look too much different now.  I certainly have no intention of getting all gussied up just to take a new picture, so you will have to be satisfied with what I have got to work with for now.

I am also trying to figure out a new logo design.  I have an idea of what I think I want to do with it, but I am just not sure yet.  I spent a lot of time earlier this summer trying to develop one, but I got overwhelmed and had to put it aside before I lost my mind entirely.  Now I am trying to work up the courage to try again.  I just get so easily frustrated with myself whenever I try to learn to do something new, I expect myself to be able to accomplish anything I set my mind to doing, and the slightest set back can be my undoing.  But, if I stop, and just put it away for a while, I can usually go back and finish it later without too much trouble.  I am hoping that will be the case this time anyway.

For now I think I am going to go work on something completely and totally mindless.  My brain is firing off too many ideas for me to keep up with at the moment and I think it is time to shut it down for a while.  I promise I will write something bitchy for you all soon.  There have been lots of people irritating me lately that you all will probably just love to hear about.  So, until then, remember, Mother Loves YOU! 


 

3 comments:

  1. LOL! I could have written this blog post, because I feel EXACTLY the same way. I've been slooooooowly becoming more public, but - I admit - I have a long way to go.

    I've been wrestling with the same dilemma; how to maintain personal space while building a "me" brand.

    And, yeah. My pic is also 10 years old. Mostly because I hate having my picture taken.

    Props to ya, girl!

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  2. I DID this...I finally put my NAME on my blog. As hard as it was, most of the people who read me know me anyway.

    But knowing that so many of my inner thoughts and feelings are on there is difficult at first.

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  3. Go for it on the photo, I say - let your LIGHT shine!

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