Thursday, May 16, 2013
Hello again Internet People! I am just sitting here staring out the window trying to convince myself to put on some real pants and go outside to pull some weeds. So far I am not having much luck. It is going to be a beautiful day here in my neighborhood, I really should do something that involves getting my ass out of the house and into the sunshine. I probably won't, but I should.
I have spent the past few days applying ink to paper in a desperate attempt to work through this latest nagging artistic need. I am getting more comfortable with myself, but I still have along way to go. I am using ink rather than a pencil in an attempt to force myself to accept my imperfections. It seems to be helping, I haven't even crumpled up a single piece to throw away yet, so I must be making headway. Every piece I have started I have "finished" no matter how bad I thought one part or another might be, so that is definitely progress for me.
I probably should clarify the fact that I am not actually trying to draw things at this point. I am basically just doodling. I used to draw these complicated abstract geometric type designs when I was younger and I am trying to reconnect with that type of art right now. I will worry about drawing actual things later, ... maybe. When I get a few more done and start feeling a little better about them I will scan them into the computer to show you all what I mean, but that's gonna be a few days. I will say though that even the worst one I have done isn't too bad. There are some seriously fucked-up parts to it, but overall, its not that bad. So at least I am making progress with my attitude.
Well, if I am ever going to get anything done today I better sign out of here and get to it. I will be back again, probably tomorrow, with more nonsensical rambling for you all to enjoy. Until next time ...