Hello again Internet People! Mother is still hard at work trying to convince herself that she can draw. Progress is being made, but it is really slow. I am still very stiff, very hesitant, I need to learn allow myself to relax and enjoy the process and quit worrying so much about the results. Its my hypercritical nature that limits me more than anything. I expect so much more from myself than I would ever even dream of expecting from anyone else. I need to quit that.
Its kinda funny, I am the first one to admit that I am not perfect, and yet I constantly demand perfection from myself, but only in areas where perfection does not exist. I don't try to be perfect at things that are perfect-able, only the ones that are not. Like art. There is no perfect in art. Truly, there is no right or wrong in art either, but I manage to find that too. I am my own worst critic, always have been, but I am trying hard not to be so damn critical anymore. I am not succeeding yet, but I am trying.
I think learning to just relax is my biggest challenge. I don't know that I have ever truly been relaxed. I am severely high-strung by nature and my life hasn't afforded me a lot of opportunities to wind that down. I have tried meditation, hypnosis, bio-feedback, etc, ad naseum, none of it works for me. I have knots in my shoulders older than most of my children, no amount of massaging will ever work them out, I just learned to live with them. My mind is stuck in hyper-drive, all the time. I need to at least find a way to channel that energy more effectively if I can't shut it off, because it is really slowing me down right now.
In the meantime, I better go eat something and get back to work. There is still much for me to do today and the hours are quickly ticking away. Until next time ...
Drawing--If you are copying another picture or a photograph, turn it upside down, and then draw it (upside down, too). You will be surprised at your success.
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